Aye, and when he is struggling with his own vows, with the ones that say that oathbreakers must be slain by their liege lord, where will I be, Ygritte? On a ship where I cannot flee and would not flee, not from my brother, in a place where I cannot kill him because I would never, in a place with kings who would see me dead for what I have done?
[Now he's angry, too. He's sick of people tossing him about like he has no feelings at all.]
And King Stannis, he has no struggle at all, to him my vows are iron, and to break them is to shatter me. He will kill me with no more thought than loosing a pebble from his boot.
[ Shouting: ] You're not at th' Wall! You're not at Winterfell! What liege lord is going t' slay you here, Jon Snow? Your brother? [ She finds that so, so impossible to believe. ] Stannis? Y'didn't kneel to him!
I thought y'said you were the Lord Commander now, and answer t' no one! None of 'em have the right t' lay a finger on you, and if they did—
[ —she can't even finish that sentence, because if any one of them did slay him for breaking an oath that doesn't mean shit out here, she knows she'd ultimately kill them herself. ]
Do you think vows just dissolve into air when we are no longer at home? Do you think honor simply evaporates because we are held prisoner?
Robb wasn't taught that! He is an honorable man, our father raised him to be the Lord of Winterfell, and turncloaks always fell to my father. Do you know that he would take us to beheadings of the crows that flew away?
They have all the right to lay a finger on me, and even more that I am Lord Commander.
[Jon's irritation is getting more and more apparent]
[ Coldly: ] No, I didn't know that, b'cause you've never told me 'bout Winterfell. You've never talked t' me 'bout your father, Lord Stark, or what he did.
I'm good enough to fuck, 'parently, but not t' tell these things to!
[ She lets the rage die down a bit to a low simmer before continuing. ]
...And if you care so much still 'bout your precious honor an' vows out here, Jon Snow...then you never should've touched me.
That isn't fair because you know nothing about what I've told you or haven't told you.
[It hits him like a punch to the gut. She may be the woman he loves but he is not the man she expects. There is a change that has not happened for her, yet, there is a change that he experienced but she didn't. Hasn't.]
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...Why not?
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...You don't want them t' find out about us. D'you?
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This is complicated.
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...It is, if that's the way y'feel 'bout it.
I already talked to your brother, Robb Stark. [ You know, that brother whose name you don't want her mentioning in your presence? ]
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Just while in bed.]
Why?
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Is that so? And what truths did you tell him?
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He asked what I was doing in your room, an' I told him we sleep t'gether, in your bed, at night.
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Did you say it because you felt it would be amusing to see the Southern Lord learn of his brother's indiscretions?
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I 'dmit, I liked seeing th' surprise on his face. But he asked, Jon Snow, an' I don't lie, not t' anyone for anything.
An' what d'these indiscretions of yours matter here? In this place?
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[Now he's angry, too. He's sick of people tossing him about like he has no feelings at all.]
And King Stannis, he has no struggle at all, to him my vows are iron, and to break them is to shatter me. He will kill me with no more thought than loosing a pebble from his boot.
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I thought y'said you were the Lord Commander now, and answer t' no one! None of 'em have the right t' lay a finger on you, and if they did—
[ —she can't even finish that sentence, because if any one of them did slay him for breaking an oath that doesn't mean shit out here, she knows she'd ultimately kill them herself. ]
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Robb wasn't taught that! He is an honorable man, our father raised him to be the Lord of Winterfell, and turncloaks always fell to my father. Do you know that he would take us to beheadings of the crows that flew away?
They have all the right to lay a finger on me, and even more that I am Lord Commander.
[Jon's irritation is getting more and more apparent]
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I'm good enough to fuck, 'parently, but not t' tell these things to!
[ She lets the rage die down a bit to a low simmer before continuing. ]
...And if you care so much still 'bout your precious honor an' vows out here, Jon Snow...then you never should've touched me.
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[It hits him like a punch to the gut. She may be the woman he loves but he is not the man she expects. There is a change that has not happened for her, yet, there is a change that he experienced but she didn't. Hasn't.]
You know nothing.
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...I know enough t' know you're hiding from me. Since I've come here, you've been hiding...and you're still hiding.
You turned your cloak on us, Jon Snow. On me. [ A brief shake of her red head. ] The other me, the one that died over th' Wall.
An' I'm sure she'd be just as disappointed as I am, right now.
[ And with that she slides out of his bed, hastily assembling her clothes and pulling them on. ]
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It's hard.]
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Don't follow me.
[ She slips out the door without another word. ]